Taking stock/Corn nuts: what not to do.

Days like today.
I've been working at the same place for a year now. Tomorrow will be my anniversary actually. During this time: I've contributed very little to this Blog of mine, I've read very little, I've created even less, I've taken pictures of what I like to think I had something to do with, I stopped carrying my camera with me so much..., then it broke.
In the past year I left Pennsylvania on an unexpected wave of opportunity. I quit a job in the middle of: cold as shit, one traffic light town, and headed back to what I feel is now my home and f*&%ing sank!


Bitter is the taste of so many things we ingest daily. Coffee, tea, citrus,....
I had in my head that I would be moving forward. I would be sacrificing a couple years in the north in order to get my personal finances straightened out and then come back. I guess that worked....for the most part.
I thought I would be partaking in this job for, the most, four months. Then, I would be steering the wheel of my my own ship. Sailing towards "Rich Land". No, I wasn't that stupid. I did, think I'd have my own restaurant by now though.

I guess.......sometimes, when you have a simple idea in your head of how something should turn out....you glaze over the in between parts.
The in between has been shit. Maybe I haven't done enough to make things happen. But, I don't know what to do in reality! I know what I want to happen and what the outcome to be, but I really have no way to make those thoughts and dreams be forced on to a bank statement right now.

Here I am, a full year later.
I have a job. I have a good income. The country around me is not fairing as well. The state I live in could digest me and poop me out, and put me on the list of unemployed.
My simple idea of how to turn hominy in to corn nuts.......didn't work. So what.

Where do you bury hundreds of thousands of bodies?
Haiti has it worse. There's nothing in my life that will ever compare to what anyone still alive on Haiti is facing.
There are times when you can (very easily) put your life into perspective. This is one of those times. Nothing that has ever happen to you is as bad as what they are going through.

This is a time to give thanks. And hope.
And help.